I've written in the last year-and-a-half, in journals and letters, but not in a public forum. And the reason was basically that at the time of my last entry, I had a scary pregnancy (that Thank G-d turned out okay) with some scary predictions as to the birth and the state of the baby (Thank G-d, that was all okay as well).
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| Here's the little troublemaker in action :) |
But the worry that I had during that time period blocked my creativity. Instead of introspecting, my avodah (misssion) at that time was NOT to introspect- just to take care of my baby, myself, and that was about it. And to pray. So I prayed a lot.
I didn't feel like I could write about what I was experiencing, because to write is to delve. And I didn't delve, because I would not have functioned.
There was also a commentor who was making it rather unpleasant for me to write on this blog. I hate to admit that this deterred me, but it did. My intellect told me 'if you let that get to you, they've won!' But my emotions told me 'I don't want to deal with this right now. The losses outweigh the gains'. This person may very well be reading this right now, but I am not as vulnerable, so I'm okay with that.
Right now, I'm in a totally different place, so I figured I'd give it a whirl. This is something I enjoy, after all. Plus, lately, quite a few people have been asking me why I'm not writing on this blog. And right now, I don't have a strong answer as to why not. So, hi! I'm not sure where this is going and if I have time for it, but today, I'm happy to be here.
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